Last Day of Preschool 2015

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

We were so blessed to have the twins in the most amazing Christian Pre-school we could ever have prayed for. This is not your average preschool, they do unbelievably fun and creative activities all while learning about Jesus. I could go on and on about the school itself and then my sweet Jack Henry and Hadley were placed in the Kangaroo class with the best teacher we could ever pray for, Ms. Beverly and her assistant Ms. Julia for the second half of the year, Ms. Jenn the first half. They learned SO many things about Jesus, about shapes, colors, seasons, they learned songs and they learned how to be a friend. You can read more about their first day here. As this last day approached I knew I would be so so sad. I cried on the first day as it began and I cried the last day, today. It FLEW BY WAY TOO FAST, I also couldn't believe I found out I was pregnant when the school year started, and now I grew and birthed sweet Walker at the end. I truly am so thankful for such amazing teachers who poured into and loved on my babies and I am thankful for the memories made and friendships cultivated for the twins. What a great school year being Kangaroos. It is one we will never forget. Their teacher cried saying goodbye and they sent us home with the most precious memory books and other keepsakes that ripped this momma's heart out. It was an emotional day but one we are thankful for. Here is to a fun and memory filled summer!  

Week two with baby Walker

Week two was another amazing week. Luke went into work Tuesday and Thursday while the twins were at preschool and this was our first week without family staying with us, simply as a family of 5 so we planned on this being our "transitional week." It was like finding a new normal, slowly, still with the help of my husband. I tried to do more myself this week since I knew this was my last week with Luke's help. I begin to feel more confident in my recovery and balancing all three children. Thursday came though, and this was Walker's first doctor's appointment. The plan was for all of us to ride to church where we would drop off the twins, and then I would hang out with Walker in Luke's office for about an hour until it was time for his appointment. However, I was feeling AWFUL that morning. I had run a really high fever all night and when I woke up it was almost 104. I felt awful. I had run a fever two nights before but had been without a fever for over 24 hours and then BOOM it was back. I was waking up totally soaking wet, but my body does that anyway post pardum, getting rid of all the extra fluid. But this time I knew it was a fever because my whole body ached. I knew I needed to call the doc because I was just 13 days post op and didn't want there to be an infection. I checked my incision, and it looked fine. My breasts were a little tender but I thought it wasn't abnormal for a new breast feeding mom, but after talking to my friend, she convinced me that I had mastitis. I was supposed to see my doctor the next day to have a normal 2 week incision check, so he wanted to wait and see me then and started me on an antibiotic just in case. I had faint redness on one side, and sure enough the next day, he confirmed that I had it. My milk supply is really good since my body is used to making milk for two and sweet Walker is often so full after one side, he wont touch the other, so milk was staying stagnant and getting backed up and thus the mastitis. I called my lactation consultant who gave me the go ahead to start pumping. After the medication and the pumping I begin to feel much better and now am pretty much totally healed. It was pretty HORRIBLE though, and I felt like I got hit by a truck, so I am very thankful to be on the other side of that! 
Walker's doctors appointment went perfectly. We had been unhappy with our pediatrician here, and never liked the twins's pediatrician in Cincinnati either, but the one I wanted to get in with here was only taking infants and their siblings, so I have been waiting to have another baby so we could switch everyone over, and we feel SO BLESSED to have this new doc. He is more holistic and just precious and we can't say enough good about him so far. Walker got weighed and he is now...

9lb 9oz (80th percentile)
Still at his birth length 21.5 inches (50th)
Head circumference (95th) hey its on the charts! 
Praising God for a perfectly healthy and happy baby.

My hormones are becoming more in control (yay!) and this little guy is just the SWEETEST! He still doesn't hardly cry. At night when we lay him down after a feed, he either quietly goes to sleep or he will fuss for 5 minutes or less. His cry starts out a whimper to a mad cry and then just stops, there is a break and he may start the same cycle over again or he may not. All I know is I always set an alarm for 10 minutes if he does fuss and he never makes it to the 10 minutes for me to intervene. He hit his first big night sleep stretch of 5 hours and he is just precious. 

We are SO in love and week 2 was a great week prepping me for my first solo week (which started today.) The twin's last day of preschool is tomorrow... TEARS, and life is just so sweet. Here are some week two pictures....

 Mother's Day 2015

 We got our newborn pictures taken, those are coming soon :)

Dr. New, my awesome OBGYN.

It was another great week. 

Week one with sweet baby Walker

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

I realized I never updated my blog to let you readers know that we had our sweet baby on May 1st. He weighted 8lbs 7oz and was 21.5 inches long. Most of you follow me on instagram or facebook and are probably well aware of his birth by now and are probably a little sick of your feeds being blown up with baby pics :) He arrived pretty unexpectantly and I am so excited to share his birth story on the blog very shortly.
I thought I would update with how our first week went. I ended up not getting my VBAC, and had another C-section so Luke and I and baby Walker stayed 3 nights in the hospital. These were some of the most precious memories in my life. It reminded me so much of our hospital stay with the twins, just soaking in such awesome intimate family time getting to know our new precious addition. Luke never left my side and took (and continues to still take) such AMAZING care of me. Seriously, he is the picture of "in sickness" and in health. He has seen all the postpartum ugly and just loves me right through it. I am SO thankful for this amazing man to call mine. We just spent hours napping, talking, snuggling our new boy and just falling deeper in love with one another. We never turned the TV on and enjoyed sweet visitors coming to see us. The twins came twice and it was the most precious thing. While we loved our time together, bonding with Walker, our hearts missed them SO MUCH. We had an incredible family friend take care of them as soon as we knew I was going to the hospital and she watched them for over 24 hours until my parents were able to catch a flight in, and we just can't thank her enough. My parents arrived late saturday night and stayed with us until the next Saturday. They were a HUGE help with the twins. They were basically in charge of Jack Henry and Hadley all week, which was a HUGE help transitioning into our new life. They made so many sweet memories and we are so thankful. One Walker's one week birthday, Luke's parents came in for the weekend and were such an amazing help as well. We are blessed with great family! 
I missed the twins so much that week and while they had so much fun, they didn't have much routine, order or discipline and it was really starting to affect them. Poor Jack Henry had a few hard moments our first week adjusting with baby Walker. He was always so sweet with him and never acted out against him, but he was acting out a lot, behaviorally, and you could just tell he was processing a lot of deep emotion. Our family has been gone 48 hours now and he is already doing SO MUCH better getting to spend more time with mommy and daddy and it looks like everything is getting better each day for him. I have Luke with me most of this week (week 2) which is a LIFE SAVER. I am still recovering physically, and I am still very emotional with all my hormones coming down and this week is really helping me transition into what my days will look like by myself with all three next week. The twins only have preschool next tuesday and thursday and then they are out for the summer. This will be a busy and challenging summer having all 3 all day every day but I am ready to take on our new normal. I could cry thinking about the twins being finished with their school year as they turned 2 just a few weeks before the class started, I had just found out I was pregnant when school started and now BAM just like that its over. My postpartum hear just CAN NOT take it. 
That leads me into my hormonal mess.  I was just like this with the twins and can't remember when it ended but I do not have the blues at all, it is just pure emotion. JOYFUL emotion and overwhelming emotion. My heart could feel like it might burst at any moment. I can be fine one minute and then reading a book to one of the twins I might break down, or hearing something sweet they say. All I have to do is look at Walker and I am pretty much toast and same for my sweet hubby. All I have to do is tell him how amazing he has been and then the tears are on. We usually laugh it through since it is so ridiculous.  I am ready to feel my more self again and be more in charge of my emotions but then again, I have a friend who told me great advice, to embrace the tears. I know God made me this way for a reason and I am just going to embrace this season and let them flow! I know that I will be back to myself before too long. 
Physical recovery seems to improve more and more each day but it is still a journey and I am very much ready to be back to myself.
Now for how my little bear is doing... He is simply perfection. He has such a laid back and sweet temperament and hardly EVER cries. Like seriously, I am writing this during week 2 so we have seen a few short moments of crying but if I was writing this week one, I would say this little guy DOESNT cry. He cried a lot the first hour he was born but since then he has been so happy and content. 
We are exclusively breast feeding him, just like the twins, and he is a nursing CHAMP. I think only nursing one, and having already nursed twins makes it ALOT easier but also, he is more a natural than they were too ( being born 10 days later than them makes a huge difference I think) He is on a 3 hour (sometimes 2.5) schedule and is following it to a tee) If he was the only baby I had to care for life would be a EASY, but throwing in two 2 year old complicates it in the most beautiful way possible. 
I just wish I could slow down time. It just goes my WAY too fast. I am trying to soak in each precious moment. I think all moms know what I mean, I love my children so much it makes my heart hurt. Luke and I often say its a love so strong, it makes us sad. But we love each stage the twins are in MORE and MORE so I continue to remind myself of that when I get tearful about sweet baby Walker getting bigger each day. 
My pregnant belly is gone (duh :) ) and that makes me sad too. Now that I have him in my arms it changes the whole pregnancy in my mind. All the memories I made in life over the last 9 months seem much more significant knowing that HE was the one I was carrying. Oh how I love him so. Pregnancy being over also means time ticks each day with this new little one, so you pregnant mommas, embrace and enjoy your pregnancy, because even though having your sweet baby here in this world is even better, pregnancy is such a special time, and such a sweet gift. 
And to end this long entry, I just have to say how INCREDIBLE it is to have such a sweet blessing draw you so very close to Jesus. Every time I look at this little gift, I can't help but be overwhelmed and sing HIS praises. HE gave him to me, HE made him, and HE has brought him here safe and sound. Thank you LORD. It really makes you understand love that God had for his son, Jesus and the unimaginable sacrifice that was given. God KNEW this was the boy for us, and after our painful miscarriage and infertility drugs, he knew all along that our Walker Luke would be the perfect part of his plan. Thank you Lord. 

Here are some pictures from our first week home :) Hospital pics coming soon with birth story. Love you readers.

38 Weeks with baby Walker...

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

No comparison this week because I had already delivered my twins by this point! Today I am 38+5 and we are getting SO excited!!! I have been having Braxton Hicks pretty regularly and today I had some contractions with a little crampy feeling, not painful but not painless and I had three in a row 9 minutes apart, but then nothing for the rest of the day. So no labor yet, but I think I am slowly progressing. I am on the birthing ball a lot, and walking lots, and drinking my tea and taking my evening primrose oil. I don't think I am going to into labor on my own before this friday (my 39 week appointment) but anything is possible but I am thinking and hoping (and PRAYING) that I will have at least progressed as far as my cervix goes and I'm thinking he might be a little lower too! I will keep you posted on Friday with my appointment and at this point we are at 9 days or less! I don't think my MD is going to let me go much past my due date. 
As far as the pregnancy, its going great! I feel very pregnant but still feeling good! I am up 38 lbs, which is 2 lbs over my goal in my brain but I am TOTALLY cool with this because I know I am almost finished with the pregnancy :) Plus I know with my high fluid levels, a lot of this is water weight. I am sleeping pretty well and overall pretty comfortable. I ran a bunch of errands yesterday and my belly felt really tight and uncomfortable and my legs feel kind of weak and just overall weary. Exited to see how this will all unfold! God is just so good and just loving each moment of these last days and getting SO excited to meet this little bear. 

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